So one day I got the idea that I should make a list of my sins – and me being extremely left-brained and analytical, decided to make an Excel spreadsheet charting all of my sins. I would carry this sheet around with me all day long and when I sinned, I put a check in the appropriate cell. This soon changed into a number because I sinned several times per entry. I figure I would also examine weekly trends of each individual sin to identify particular problem areas.
But then I noticed something….as the weeks went by, I noticed that my chart had fewer and fewer numbers (or checks). I was thrilled that I was sinning less. I was feeling kind of good about myself. I thought I was well on my way to becoming a good Christian.
Then one day I noticed that there were no checks in the cells. I had been sin-free for about three days. It was then that I realized that I was NOT sinning less or becoming a “good” Christian. I knew that the Bible said something much different than my chart. Do I dare put myself on the level of Christ and proclaim to be sinless? No!!! I realized that sin is a part of me, my being, much like my arms or legs. Sin is who I am and I cannot rid myself of myself until Jesus changes my body of corrupt into incorruptible. I realized that my chart was nothing more than a waste of time – the fruit of a sin-tainted mind even with the best of intentions.
I thanked and praised Jesus for opening my eyes to the foolishness of this high-tech approach to self examination. I wonder if He was angry with me or laughing at me. (I find it a little funny looking back)