I have a problem with my delivery and my anger sometimes. I’m normally laid back but when it comes to things of a spiritual nature, I am armed and loaded and ready to shoot! Unfortunately at times I exude WAY too much force in my delivery thus grinding the offender into a fine powder. This is NOT the way a child of God should act but I did it….AGAIN!!!
Without getting into the gory details, there was a bone I had to pick with my husband and I picked it yesterday. But…I went too far. I made an accusatory statement afterwards which really hurt him. My thinking was “I was right so suck it up and deal with it.” After speaking with him this morning, he said he was disappointed in how I said something. He agreed with what I said, and that he was wrong about something, but he was upset at the remark I made afterwards. But I stood by what I said. In fact I went on this long tirade defending myself on my holy high-horse and when I decided to give him a moment to speak, he said; ‘you don’t need to use a sledgehammer to crack a walnut’. INSTANTLY I was convicted!!!! I felt so awful because of the way I acted and I KNEW I was wrong and WAY too harsh with him. The seeming ‘righteous anger’ was immediately dissipated and replaced with sorrow. The Lord showed me, through Mark, that I may have been right but I wasn’t righteous. I did not handle it in a Godly way. I apologized to Mark immediately, and to the Lord during my devotional time.
I praise Jesus for His divine correction and revealing this to me. I delight in His wondrous chastisement!!! Thank you Jesus!!!!